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Do you believe in God? [Sep. 29th, 2007|12:49 am]
[Current Location |Dorm room]
[mood |curiouscurious]
[music |Flyleaf]

It's been over a year...

I'm a freshman in college. U of I... greyhound woof woof. Single and liking it, kinda.

I go through spurts of loving it here, and missing back home. By back home I mean Avon. (I'm still mad at my parents for moving from the old house right after graduation. Guess I'll never really get over that.) I've got amazing friends here. I think some of them really do care for me. I have fun times all the time. I'm involved with everything on campus... kinda. But... it's not the same. Like I told Bry... I miss not having to explain myself to everyone. I miss having those people who already know everything about me... who know the ins and outs of my personality.
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And it's not over til it's over [Aug. 14th, 2006|06:05 pm]
[mood |accomplishedaccomplished]
[music |House of Fools]

The past two weeks of my summer have revolved almost completely around a little known program that my school does called Jr. Miss. It's kinda like a pageant, but no swimsuits and a large percentage of the judging was academic. Regardless it was one of the best things I've ever done. Although there were times I left crying at 11pm practices from stress... I wouldn't trade the experience for the world. I've gotten to know 15 of the most amazing girls in my grade... 2 of whom I've been friends with forever. Regardless of the different activities and cliques we all were in, we got along beautifully. The night of the performance was filled with nerves, sweat, and tears of joy. I didn't win the "TITLE" but I did get "Miss Spirit" (think Miss Congeniality). Between the posters, cards of encouragement and congratualtions, the presents, tiaras, candy...etc. I've now got a wall kind of dedicated to Jr. Miss. I'll post pictures sometimes soon.

By the way this is an off the wall post. So I'm sorry
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Stop hey what's that sound... [Aug. 6th, 2006|08:25 pm]
[mood |amusedamused]
[music |60's feeling]

Getting used to feeling so pressured. Only a week until Jr. Miss. Of course I'm nervous. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't.
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I should tell you, well here we go... [Jul. 3rd, 2006|10:37 am]
[Current Location |Home]
[mood |goodgood]
[music |Rent Soundtrack]

So after a good 5 or 6 months of having my heart in hibernation, I feel it is time to bring it back out. Stretch it out, dust off the cobwebs, carefully though... we don't want any of the scars to rip apart. There is a new boy outside of that cave. And this boy is different... different in a good way. He makes me happy... just like I'm supposed to feel. I think I'm ready to show him my heart in it's somewhat scarred glory.

Oh well. Essentially the metaphor I was trying to get at was... I'm getting over things in my past.
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With accidents you'll never know what could've been [May. 30th, 2006|03:14 pm]
[Current Location |Home...*looks around* yes home]
[mood |determineddetermined]
[music |Motion City Soundtrack]

Summer plans for Annie include work, "Accents Boot Camp", vocal lessons, dance lessons, more work, Jr. Miss, a road trip or two..., and whatever else heads my way.

In essence I'm completely enthralled by the thought of being a senior in two short days. I've been chewing the idea since Friday. My feelings are divided, much like a pie, into thirds. A third of me is aching to get the hell out of this place and never look back. A third of me is terrified of the end, that the past 12 years have all been a wasted behind a desk. A third of is completely engrossed with the thought of "senior activities". This includes going to all the sport events, another prom, choir practices and contests, another Riley Day, Senior Breakfast... etc... etc...

So if you randomly see me smile then cry and then sigh all in the time span of one minute you'll understand why.
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Singing my hopes of yesterday today [Apr. 10th, 2006|10:39 pm]
[Current Location |Your mom... yeah.]
[mood |hopefulhopeful]
[music |Halifax]

I keep telling myself this is the week things will change. I keep telling myself that this is the month things will be different. Now is actually the time I can say that. Within 30 days I will no longer be a junior. I will finally be a senior. Yeah. I can't believe it myself. I'm terrified, excited, ready, and unprepared. Who knew a person could be like this? Not me.

This was taken a afternoon before an Accent practice. It makes me think about things when I need to put things in perspective.

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Just to keep us warm, light a match [Mar. 18th, 2006|11:14 pm]
[mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[music |Fall Out Boy]

I told Megan I was starting a list of things I want to get do/ get done before I graduate. It's pretty long... funny at times... but for good use.


PS: Besides needing a straight boy to be interested in me... I also need a dress... and a concert.
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Though the motions I've been going thru have failed [Mar. 12th, 2006|01:12 pm]
[music |Fall Out Boy]

Anyone want to go look for prom dresses with me? Yes I will go. I'll either go with a date that's more intrested in cute guys than I am or I'll go with a guy who thinks I'm great. Either way I win right?
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Cause there's no one in the world like Emily [Mar. 9th, 2006|11:48 pm]
[mood |crappycrappy]
[music |From First To Last]

Sometimes I just get tired of feeling the same. I thought maybe letting go of somethings would make things easier. They don't... Maybe I'm just destined to feel somewhat empty for a while.

Can't everyone stop talking about prom for a few days? Seriously I don't want to go by myself... so why should I go? Unless by some miracle happening I don't think I'll go. If I do I'll go with a gay guy.
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(no subject) [Mar. 4th, 2006|04:23 pm]
[music |Choirs]

So I'm actually at a choir competition now. How cool is that? You know some schools have computers in their hallways with internet access. Too bad they don't have access to Myspace or Xanga. Damn
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